Try to Understand.

Why doesn’t euphoria last?

Like a cigarette in your hand if goes up in smoke,

Even when you feel completely loved.

Why the need to dig the wound that torments you all the time?
Am i ill?
Are you ill at times even at peace?
What is my peace?
Why the raging storms?
Can i hid in your arms for a moment?
What then when they are gone?
Like the wind.
Like dust.
Like ashes.
We all come to pass.
We all pass.
I wish i could put to death that part of soul,
but does it anchor me
Or haunt me?
I need no saving.
Maybe i need this pain?
I dont understand why
but maybe one day i might.
I deal with it.
Pray and move with it.
Hopefully peace will fix it?
Do i want fixing?
Do i?

This song, this you

You know me, my darkest deepest secrets, you see past all my masks and get me. Make me wanna be a better version of me. You know i am fraglie and will want to claim me and protect and love me. I know its only in this bubble but it’s a great one to be wrapped up in. So that song is about it i guess?


When its late and i am the last one awake
I creep into their rooms and snuggle in their beds for a kiss.
Ransoms and luxury from kings
i cannot trade for soft skin and curls.
In the slience they sleep.
Little lambs,
Little angels.
This image i forever shall keep.
God’s knows i am not a saint
neither am i a good mother,
But my charges rest assure that they will dream sweet
and rest in peace in these arms that shield.
The night toils on and its my turn to retreat to bed.
I take with me the sweet fragrance of their childhood and full love.
Unwaving comfort of my youth well spent.


You look not a day old,
your mind sparkles with ideas and thoughts to run the world.
Yet, you cannot run from it.
That bitting loneliness, the regrets.
I tried to bridge the gap
but you widen it with careless words,
random notes of grander love that we do not need.
Your company is all a girl needs and wants.
What you need is peace as time chimes on
and twlight comes upon us.
Could you not find your peace with God?
Rest your mind and your soul?
All gold and beauty fades.
Time awaits for no one.
Make up your mind!
Choose to be meaningful and full of love
and the peace you so desperately seek will come true, when you surrender.
Take heed.
Take solance
before you fade out into the night that’s cold.


We wanna run from it
the maddening crowd
the fire
the smoke
it burns, it makes you drown in it.
The noises
the buzz.
But you can’t hide darling
from the bells
the whistles
the chiming and chatter.
Retreat to the woods,
Feel the earth beneath you.
Thank heavens for the air in your lungs,
the moon and her face that shines upon you
and the sound if water as you dive into stillness.
Bliss to drown it out.

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