Try to Understand.

Why doesn’t euphoria last?

Like a cigarette in your hand if goes up in smoke,

Even when you feel completely loved.

Why the need to dig the wound that torments you all the time?
Am i ill?
Are you ill at times even at peace?
What is my peace?
Why the raging storms?
Can i hid in your arms for a moment?
What then when they are gone?
Like the wind.
Like dust.
Like ashes.
We all come to pass.
We all pass.
I wish i could put to death that part of soul,
but does it anchor me
Or haunt me?
I need no saving.
Maybe i need this pain?
I dont understand why
but maybe one day i might.
I deal with it.
Pray and move with it.
Hopefully peace will fix it?
Do i want fixing?
Do i?
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You, get me.

I wouldn’t change a thing.
Not a lyric to the melody of our love song.
Not from the bars of pain that echos from my veins,
The shrill of highs and the sweet harmonies.

I never knew love like this.
Intense. Raw. Comforting. Disarming.
Drafted in a moment to last for eternity.
Like a tap of emotions,
Your love poured forth onto me,
I had no time but to free fall into it,
Eyes closed.
Heart opened.

No regrets my love.
Even if this moment was for a beat.
I could never feel this way again
No one could love me the way you do from my head to my feet.
You see me and i you.
Two mirrors echoing in the night,
Never fading from the light,
Ever lasting till it is nothing but right.

Q’s kisses

Q’s Kisses

Your kisses are like drops of dews on my perched lips.
Drench me.
Like the morning sun you warm my skin with them.
Tantalise me.
Draw a map as you navigate each part of me, leaving no part untouched.
Conquer me.
Taste all of me and let me drink some with you.
Feed me.

Your kisses burn so gently and leave marks on my soul.
Scorch me.
Like the night and blanket of stars, my mind wanders to a space of joy
You amaze me.
Draw from me as i draw you in, hunger for your every thing.
Devour me.
Taste all of my juices that flow from the abundance of your touch and yours and mine.
Drown with me.

This song, this you

You know me, my darkest deepest secrets, you see past all my masks and get me. Make me wanna be a better version of me. You know i am fraglie and will want to claim me and protect and love me. I know its only in this bubble but it’s a great one to be wrapped up in. So that song is about it i guess?

My Sister’s Commision

Dear T,
I cannot find all the words in my heart to express how i feel when the bishop talked about the hardships and spiritual battles you have and might go through.
“No” I said , they will be blessed. They are protected. But i know better.
You have battles. As the Lady at home. As the wife and mother of a Missionary your battles and rages with home and your own ministry will be tough. You will need support and prayers. Late night calls and texts of love from us, your warriors.
As tears streamed. I had flash back memories of you as a little girl, of 7. That cheeky nature, that sturborness and fierce love you had for the things you believe in.
I believe- God knows.God chooses God will protect, those whom he has choosen to fight His battles , to reach souls who will learn of His Good word through your gentleness, your kindness and sincerity.
I will miss you.
Miss Vt, F and Gr. My heart tugs when I know I can no longer follow you as you had once asked to follow me to a party.
Without your love and faith i would not have God.
Without God my eternal soul will have perished into darkness forever.
Bring someone into the light, Ting and shine in your way. You are so special to me now and always.
Go Commission and bring the Message of love to all. I will always be in my corner loving and praying for you.
Always here, always loving you,
Jie
21st oct 2018

BOY.GIRL

When its late and i am the last one awake
I creep into their rooms and snuggle in their beds for a kiss.
Ransoms and luxury from kings
i cannot trade for soft skin and curls.
In the slience they sleep.
Little lambs,
Little angels.
This image i forever shall keep.
God’s knows i am not a saint
neither am i a good mother,
But my charges rest assure that they will dream sweet
and rest in peace in these arms that shield.
The night toils on and its my turn to retreat to bed.
I take with me the sweet fragrance of their childhood and full love.
Unwaving comfort of my youth well spent.

OLD MAN

You look not a day old,
your mind sparkles with ideas and thoughts to run the world.
Yet, you cannot run from it.
That bitting loneliness, the regrets.
I tried to bridge the gap
but you widen it with careless words,
random notes of grander love that we do not need.
Your company is all a girl needs and wants.
What you need is peace as time chimes on
and twlight comes upon us.
Could you not find your peace with God?
Rest your mind and your soul?
All gold and beauty fades.
Time awaits for no one.
Make up your mind!
Choose to be meaningful and full of love
and the peace you so desperately seek will come true, when you surrender.
Take heed.
Take solance
before you fade out into the night that’s cold.